| The theme is selfish and selfless love, sacrificing everything for a man, fighting off rivals for his affection, and the frantic search for youth and beauty to capture his heart.. This is what will happen when one has fallen in love. For the sake of love, the person will fight for the other person. |
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Inilah kali pertama saya mencuba untuk menulis blog dalam BM. Jadi kalau ada sebarang kesilapan, silalah ketawa dan tinggalkan komen untuk saya ya... Semalam, tanpa membuat sebarang perancangan, saya telah pergi melawat Putrajaya Floral 2012. Biasanya saya tak akan pergi tetapi kerana minat saya untuk mengambil foto, maka, saya bersama kamera saya yang tak secanggih pun bertolak ke situ. This was the reason why I wanted to go to Bukit Panorama. I first saw the photo way back in early 2000. Bukit Panorama is situated in Sungai Lembing. I have been there once but I didn't go up the hill because the path leading to the top of the hill scared me so I stayed at the foothill while the others went up. This year, it's all about changes to me, so, I decided to fulfill this unfinished goal. The day came not before I had a lot of 'What If' scenarios in my my mind. I had never drive to Kuantan with inexperienced drivers. The thought of driving on Karak Highway at night terrifies me. This is not my familiar territories. Anyway, I put the 'what if' out of my mind, assured my mind that it's going to fine and I carried on with the plan. Every morning when I woke up, I would hear the birds chirping away happily outside my window. It is one of the best sound to awake to. I would, then, lie in bed, waiting for my mind to awake fully.
4 months ago, it was a total different picture. I was just like everyone. Awaken to lots of problems. Problems from work, problems from the family, problems from the car, problems from the house, problems from the government, problems, problems and problems. I was like.. okay... alrite.. back to bed. This past few days, I have been under the weather with this flu caused by haze. It is not the flu that dampens my mood. It's the changes in a relationship that made me pondered a lot of things which really questions my believes and principles.
For the past few months, I have grown fond of a friend of mine. We started of just as acquaintance. Eventually, we become friends. We would exchange SMS or drop messages in FB frequently everyday. I love to make her laugh. She enjoyed my small jokes. We would exchange advises. There would never a day whereby there wouldn't be any exchanges of message. All of the sudden, it changed. She would no longer answer my message. It is as though she has cut off all communication with me. This has left me bewildered. Do you you have anyone in your life whom you hate or can't bear to see that person or even to hear about the person's name?
Well, I do. I have a lot, starting from A until Z. Well, just joking... hahahaha In the last few months, my list of persons whom I hate have grown. When you hate people, won't you feel that you are slowly turning into another person full of anger, your blood pressure will go up, your hair will be in disarray, you will develop pimples, you want to have your revenge, you will be stress out, everything you see will turn into black colored things and when you can't get your revenge, sad, lost of hope and depression will set in? Have you ever been hurt so many times that you have lost counts? You are only hurt once but by reliving that hurt memories, you are hurt over and over again. So, not wanting to get hurt, be positive, mindfulness, kind, compassionate and not to relive the hurt memories over and over again. A few weeks back, some misunderstanding had hurt me. I was being played out. What should be a 5 persons trip to Penang had became a 3 persons trip because 2 of them had pulled out at the last minute.
The trip was based on the mutual understanding that they would go. If they told me earlier that they don't want to go then I wouldn't have gone through the trouble of arranging the trip and to fork out extra money for that trip. Although apology was handed out but it was without sincerity. I had accepted the play out by them because I understand I don't want to relive that awful hurt again. |
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